I was your typical bluepill betakid. I went to a school of 70-80% girls and so my circle of friends consisted mainly of them. I always got complimented for "good looks" but I still ended up just being friends with them. I always got massive sympathy for "being such a nice guy". I would drive my female friends to places, borrow them money that they never returned, allowed them to vent to me about their guy troubles and boss me around in hopes that one day they would want to have sex with me because I was everything they described their dream man to be. Thinking back at it just makes me cringe.
I feel like many people don't realize how powerful the sidebar material is. Don't just skim through it - READ THAT SHIT. And internalize it. It's rock solid fucking truth.
At first I discarded everything I read here, but as time passed, I started noticing massive amounts of real life evidence supporting red pill philosophy. At some point I realized it was all true. Everywhere.
All my life I had been pushed around by women and doing what they ask me. One night when I was hanging out with my female friends, I did a complete 180 and challenged everything they said. I spoke my mind and told them female dating games are complete bullshit and that none of them were attractive in my eyes. I was done giving a fuck.
Later on that night one of my friends (9) came up to me and flirtingly asked me to come over to her place for the night. I refused and asked her to drive me home instead. (NOTE: WAS NOT YET ALPHA HERE - JUST TOO MUCH OF A BITCH TO FUCK HER) I couldn't believe it. The same fucking girl I had been lusting for for years that friendzoned me so many times.
When I got home I was fucking furious of how badly I had been duped my entire life. I spent the next 2 weeks going on binge-reads of red pill material and every day my eyes opened more and more. I would go to the gym and just stare into nothingness and hate women.
Now everything is fine. I understand. I'm just not good enough. Women aren't evil, they have their own needs and tendencies. Nobody cares about my woes, I am the only one who can fix my life.
I'm going monk mode for the next 6 months. The vigorous self improvement is already yielding results - I lost 10 pounds, got a well-paying summer job, researched game and self confidence (Elliott Hulse and RSD are great btw), started running and cut down on watching tv, drinking and playing video games. I am so glad I found this subreddit now, when I'm still young, instead of the age of 40 after getting financially assraped by a failed marriage.
TL;DR - AWALT. Negative comments all over reddit are great for this subreddit. If you are a newbie, don't start hating women, hate yourself instead and fix the situation.
cheers for gold !