I'm about ready to go to bed, but I need to get this off of my chest.
When I was a really young boy, I had the typical recipe for somebody that will eventually become a Beta Male: dominating/overprotective/overbearing mother and a distant father. On top of that, my mother was a teacher at the elementary school I attended and I had to spend hours upon hours after school with her and other teachers with the same attitude. When I got home, it wasn't a relief either. My father was never there for me, my sister was always harassing me and my brother(who is gay) was always involved with his girlfriends.
As usual, I was punished for expressing traditional and inborn masculine traits and behaviors. Blue Pill lies such as "you will be in love some day" and "real men are nice" were passed around every day. I would get yelled at by my mother whenever I would get bullied at school because it makes her look bad to her boss. Whenever I stood tall and confident, I would be told that it "makes [me] look like a jerk." My sister always bossed me around and made me feel like shit. Long-story-short, my masculine energy was sucked out of me like a vacuum.
Before I swallowed The Red Pill, I was your typical Beta Male. My goal in life was to "make a woman happy for the rest of her life." With the knowledge I have acquired through this subreddit, I can confidently say that that is complete BULLSHIT.
I've begun a self-improvement journey and I definitely feel some discomfort as my current behavior contradicts what I've been told throughout my life. I can definitely tell my mother and sister don't like it either. My sister doesn't want me to lift weights because I will "look like one of those douchebags" and my mother doesn't want me to work for a junk hauling business or buy a longboard because "its too dangerous and you'll hurt yourself." (I get scrapes and minor scratches from both...whoopdee fucking doo...) Both of them call me "selfish" when I say that I don't want to get married...what the fuck....
Hopefully, all of this discomfort from self-improvement and discipline will pay off in my thirties(I turn 20 in a few months). I am more than grateful that I found this community, it probably saved me a lifetime of humiliation.
STAY STRONG, MEN.